I’m having runny nose now, guess I caught a cold. Tissue paper everywhere on my PC table. Sneezing n blowing my nose. Argh, hate this feeling..

Slack day in camp. Played soccer in the morning. Fantastic game, I scored 4 goals, all thanks to my team mates who provided me with excellent services. Unfortunately, my balls got rammed by a thunderbolt ball. Ouch! Lucky my hand acted as a cushion. That incident got the animal out of me. I started playing like a crazy man, tackling my opponents like a fiery pit-bull dog. In the end, all of them were afraid of my approach of the game. They started passing the ball away when I run towards them. We played for 2 whole hrs. Totally exhausted, every muscle in my legs is aching now. Cleaned my M16 rifle in the afternoon n that sums up my day in camp.

Ying is feeling better now. She had reconciled with her bf. At least he apologized after knowing he’s in the wrong. I asked her to give him another chance, but be more careful at investing feelings at this guy in the future. She sounds happier now. Hope I won’t see the emotional side of her again.

It’s weird isn’t it? Are all girls born like that? Ying can forgive him even with the impolite way he treats her sis n the harsh words he said to her. She told me that he’s not exactly a very refined guy, not the kind she would expect to marry. But when he’s wooing her, he did all sorts of things to win her heart, n that touched her. She accepted him eventually. I asked her why, n she said “I’m a simple girl who only ask for a guy to love me, take care of me n make me happy, the rest is secondary.” Yes, he may not be the prince charming she’s been dreaming of or the Mr Right she’s hoping for, but he’s able to make her happy, n that makes his terrible character only a little flaw in her eyes. Love is, after all, blind.

As for me, I’m just the total opposite. I start a relationship with marriage as my initiative. I mean, why start it out with a girl only to expect that it’ll eventually end up in tears? I want a lifelong relationship, one that lasts a lifetime, not one that ends after only a few months or few years. To me, it’s a waste of time n feelings to end things like that. So far, I’ve only seen 2 such girls in my life. One is Joyce(check the links for her blog), another is my ex, my very dearest Kim. Very unfortunately, none succeeded. At least Joyce is fine with talking n maintaining a friendship with me. My ex totally boycotts me, refusing to talk or see me as a friend. If I can see the future, I would have just chosen to be friends with her. At least we can be friends 4eva instead of being like enemies now.

Haha, I think that’s the big problem with me. I strive for perfection in everything I do, even the case of looking for a perfect gf. My standard isn’t very high though, cos I know I’m not perfect too. A kind hearted girl will be perfection to me. I guess I love more with my head than with my heart, n that makes me a pretty cold person. Hai, I’m born like that. It’s hereditary cos I see this trait in my dad. Haha, sometimes I wonder why my mum can still love n marry him when he’s such a person. He’s really lucky to have got such a capable wife. I dunno if my luck will be as good as my dad’s.

We had dinner together just now as a family of four for the 1^st time in 4 weeks. Me, sis, dad n mum, eating together on our cosy little dining table. Mum cooked dad’s fav dark soy sauce stewed pig’s trotters. Dad was gobbling everything up on the table. Haha, he must have missed oriental food, he’s not a fan of western food. I’m very happy of cos. Even if we have to eat instant noodles, I’ll still enjoy every minute of it. It’s the people that I eat with, n not the food, which makes me happy.

Ok, I wrote a lot today. No pictures to share with u guys today. I’ll promise more for tmr. There’s a 5km out camp run at Mt. Faber Park in the noon tmr. N yes, it’s the 28^th again tmr. Rose 6. I’ll make one of the most impt decisions ever in my life.

I’ll go take my flu med n sleep now. Hope I’ll feel well enough to run 5km tmr. Lightning n thunder outside my windows, a heavy downpour beckons.

Good Night everyone.