Breathe

At last, i have some breathing space. It has been a crazy 2 weeks with nonstop assignments and midterm tests. It got so hectic that at some point, i almost lost my mind. I have this feeling that the longer i stay in SoC, the shorter my lifespan will be. No wonder stroke sufferers are getting younger nowadays. The immense pressure we face is simply crappy.

Wich reminds me of the tragedies dat surround local universities for the past week. Just on Friday, another person was found dead in a NTU hostel room. The Chinese national apparently hanged himself in his room. This coming from the back of the death of another student less than a week ago in the same sch and same faculty.

In addition, an American exchange student passed away sudddenly in NUS Prince George's Park resident this week, but death cause is unknown as of yet. I'm kinda taken aback by these deaths, especially the Indonesian student David Wadjaja who stabbed his lecturer before jumping to his death. Intolerable stress? Lost his mind? Lost hope? We'll never know wad was his motivation in the stabbing. Wad we know is dat is lost his scholarship in January this yr and his results have been slipping.

As for the Chinese national, oso from Electrical & Electronic Engineering NTU, his death was perhaps a lost of hope? He's actually a graduate from the school and was retrenched soon after getting his first job. After a few months of failure in securing a new job, we went back to NTU as a school staff, Doing wad, I'm not sure. But it's kinda creepy to see someone hang himself in a school hostel.

Then articles about foreign students kept coming out in the media these few days. It gave us an insight of a foreign student's life in Singapore universities. Loneliness is owas the keyword, second is the immense stress they face in school. N i couldn't agree more. Fighting a battle alone is by no means a walk in the park.

When i first stepped into NUS, I had no one, no fren, no help, no nothing. To make things worse, the materials dat i study isn't exactly one of the easiest around. I did feel alone, not helped by the competitive nature in school, where help is either half hearted or u get a straight "sorry, i oso dunno how to do" reply. I was disillusioned, helpeless n frustrated.

But thank god it became better slowly. Even me, as a local student, can feel this way, the foreign students must have felt much worse I suppose. But i still think taking ur own life is not an option in solving the problem. When i graduate next yr, i'll look back to NUS n tell myself i survived 4yrs of hell.


Now back to some pictures. Ystd was the last day of my test. Met up with MQ after dat n went for a meal. Something which I can enjoy n relax.

Friday in school, it was a motor fair. Saw this cool Nissan Skyline GT-R34

Went Cafe Cartel for the meal

My Hawaiian Pork Chop

Walked around after dat n saw these 3 Lamborghini Gallardo outside Millenia Walk.