MMI called me this morning. My appointment had been brought forward to this coming Tuesday instead of the 22^nd Nov. The doctor has something to talk to me after seeing my left knee MRI result. Shit, I’m scared, really scared. What’s wrong? I dun wish to go under knife. Ok, I should stop worrying until I hear what she has to say.

Back to camp this morning, had a lecture on safety n did some shifting of equipment in my platoon store, then book out. Headed down to the driving centre after grabbing my stuff at home. It was raining cats n dogs, damn heavy. Lucky the rain stopped slightly juz b4 I got into the car. Haha, it’s only my 3^rd lesson n I had to drive in the rain with the wiper making a weird noise. The instructor asked me to drive out to the public road. Woohoo! It’s my 1^st time driving on public road, oh my, it was super fun. Changing lanes n speeding up, fantastic. I went all the way to 60km/h at 4^th gear, great feeling. But I have a very bad habit. I love to brake late, n that caused me to stop very near to the car in front or my braking isn’t smooth. Bad habit, I do that while cycling too. Hmm, I must be a safer driver n brake earlier in my next lesson on Monday.

Read “Urban” this morning, they wrote about proms. Yeah, it’s that time of the year again. All the junior colleges will hold their proms on the 1^st week on December, after all the A Level papers are over. Haha, I gave my JC prom a miss. Everyone was puzzled then why I refused to go. The excuse I gave them was it was too expensive n I’m lazy to buy the clothes. Yeah, those were lies actually. Two reasons why I gave it a miss.

Number one: My then gf wasn’t going, cos she’s still in yr one n was not graduating with me. I’ll definitely keep thinking of her n can’t enjoy myself if I went for the prom. Number two: The 2 yrs I spent in TPJC was fun n fulfilling, but I was pathetic in my studies. I admit I played too much, neglecting my studies. My results were so poor throughout the 2 yrs, I didn’t dare show it to my mum. My confidence in my academics dropped to an all time low. I have high expectations of myself. Looking at my results, I really felt stupid n helpless. Damn, how can I enjoy the prom when I don’t even know what the future holds for me? In fact, I gave up after finishing my A Levels, the papers were really tough, n I thought I’m gone case. I lost hope, n going to the prom seemed weird to me since I might even get retained. So ya, that’s why I gave it a miss. Ha, but I did went to my secondary school prom though. It was fun, but we were still young then n didn’t really know how to enjoy.

Ok, Thursday is over, juz received my pay today. Phew, thank god it’s here, I’m barely surviving with the amount of reserves I have now. 5km out camp run tmr at Esplanade Park. Cool, running in the city, I’ll get to see the working crowd. I’ll run slowly la, dun wanna kill my knee…