It's enough, finally friday, enough of waking up at 5am.. I haven't had a good long sleep for 2 weeks, waking up everyday at 5am. A stupid huge pimple popped outta my left forehead this morning, sucks, can't wait to get rid of it. So old liao still kena pimple, muz be the raging testosterone in me. 10km, no mood to run, cos PS made us stay back when we can actually book out last night. Good that he at least gave us half day off today. I can't understand why, the bloody weather in Seletar is so crappy, it ALWAYS start to rain only AFTER the run had JUST finished. Can't it pity us?? Rain before the run starts, then no need to run anymore what, kaoz. This time my timing was 1hr 1min 5sec, a 3min 33sec improvement from the 10km i ran last tues. Guess my body is more tuned to the speed liao, but i'm still aiming to break my 55min record.

Sad news on the papers today. Another soldier died in the SAF, it's the second army regular(those who sign on army as career) to die in 2 weeks. Hai, it's really sad to see one of your fellow soldier die, it's a dark day for SAF again. Last wednesday, an army regular Second Sergeant Ong Jia Hui, 24, died while undergoing maritime security training off Changi Naval Base. Then this week's Wednesday, Second Warrant Officer Teh Kok Lian collapsed in the morning during a routine run at Jurong Camp. He's 39, leaving behind a wife n 3 kids aged between 8 n 13 years old. My god, his kids are still so young, i really feel very sad for them. Doctors said he died of heart attack, but his family said he's healthy n seldom fall sick. He's a very active person, engaging in all sorts of sports n games.

It's really traumatising to read this kind of news. It's like, life is so damn fragile. This warrant officer juz died like that, collapsed during a run, no warning, leaving his poor family behind. It's very scary. What if one day, during one of my unit's 10km run, someone collapses n leave us juz like that? What if it's my platoon mate, my PC or my PS? What if it's me? I'm scared, cos my dad has history of heart attack n high blood pressure, i may not be spared of these illnesses due to genetic hereditary. I wonder, what if i can't see my family anymore? How about my friends? What if i can't see my dearest ex-gf for the one last time? So many 'what if's. Life is so unpredictable. I really wish to have good health n live my life happily. Money can't buy a life. It's heart wrenching to see his family's picture on the papers, especially his wife of 16 years, his secondary school sweetheart. Her redden n swollen eyes juz speaks for itself....