Love-A builder & Destroyer

The E-trail test at CDC was alright. I managed to pass all 4 of the sample Basic Theory Test papers. No mean feat though, I’m expected to pass, but I have to admit the 90% passing score is pretty scary. Out of 50 questions, u can only get 5 of them wrong. Saw Alvin, my kayaking partner, at the driving centre. He was there for his practical lesson. He’s a private candidate, cheaper but slower. His final prac test is in Feb. Haha, let’s see if I can overtake him.

She msg me halfway thru the trail test. Although what she said is what I wanna hear, but I dunno if I’m doing the right thing. Should I be selfish n take her away from a friend? I know it would be devastating for my friend when that happens.

Hai.. I’m confused, I feel like crap n I need endorphins to feel good. I can get that from chocolates, sex or exercising. Too much choc is no gd. Sex is definitely out, that’s reserved for someone I truly love. So, I’m down with exercising. Got my running shoes, n bam, I’m running while the sun was setting in the horizon. The jog was good, I sweated it out n I thought over many things during the run. I dunno how far I ran; I only knew I didn’t stop pounding the ground for 40minutes around my neighbourhood. The sun was gone n stars were shining when my run ended. Yes, I did get the endorphins n I was feeling good. Had a hearty dinner with mum n sis but dad wasn’t back yet. Maybe he’ll be back later, or in the morning.

Ying called. She sound troubled n lost. It’s then I knew it’s the fault of love. Relationships can really make or break ur life. Feeling something amiss, I went to talk to her. She cried. I’ve never seen her cry before. Ever Since the first time I saw her till today, she has always been cheerful n crappy. But I saw the emotional side of her just now. How fast things can turn bad within 1month plus. Illusions of love. She always thought things can be good all the time, n there’s no such thing as “honeymoon period” becos everyday will be one. There are bound to be quarrels n dissatisfaction in a relationship. But her first bf is pushing things pretty far judging by wad he did. Just when she’s about to sink into the sea of love, things turn for the worse. She never expected her first ever relationship will turn out like this. Hai.. dat’s the power of love- a builder n a destroyer. Lent her a shoulder to cry on n listened to all her troubles while trying my best to console her. Hope she’s feeling better after a cry. A break-up is facing right in front of her, but I still pray that, that won’t happen. It’s too cruel to bring her so high up, then push her back to ground zero within such a short time. I’m afraid that she can’t accept it. I knoe how it feels to be heartbroken. Heartbreaks are killers. Dat's the reason for the thought of giving up on my ex. If my own happiness will cause devastation to another, then it's something very bad for me to do. Hai.. Dunno la. 2 long yrs of relationship is not something u can give up so easily.

Alright, I’m totally exhausted. Booking in back to camp in 5hrs’ time. Office duty till Tuesday morning. Gotta crash. +CiAoX+